Wednesday, December 23, 2009

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus

The Cast:

In the present day, immortal thousand-year-old Doctor Parnassus (Christopher Plummer) leads a travelling theatre troupe — including a sleight of hand expert, Anton (Andrew Garfield), and a dwarf, Percy (Verne Troyer) — that offers audience members a chance to go beyond reality through a magical mirror in his possession. Parnassus had been able to guide the imagination of others through a deal with the Devil (Tom Waits), who now comes to collect on the arrangement, targeting the doctor's daughter, Valentina (Lily Cole). The troupe, which is joined by a mysterious outsider named Tony (portrayed by Heath Ledger, Johnny Depp, Jude Law, and Colin Farrell), embark through parallel worlds to rescue the girl.


Sunday, December 20, 2009

Mood Swings: Good or Bad?

Just to start out, this isn’t one of those stories talking about changes in the environment, government, Presidency, or anything like that, it’s changes in oneself.

Lately, I’ve found myself suffering major mood swings and having the insatiable urge to flip out on anyone who aggravates me. I’ve always had a short temper, but it’s never been like this - now. I don’t know how it started or when, and I fear I’ll never know. Still, every day I wonder if what’s happening is normal.

I’ve never been one to have high tolerance levels, nor high patience levels, but when it comes to people younger or significantly older than me, I’m so different, it’s amazing. For instance, when I’m around people my own age that aren’t as mature as me, or if their behavior isn’t appropriate for the scenario, I get incredibly angry. When someone asks a question that I deem to have an obvious answer, I get angry. When someone is too lazy to do something and resorts to asking someone else, who’s already busy, and the lazy person gets mad, I get extremely angry, especially if the busy person is me.

It’s like I have no tolerance for people my age if they aren’t like me, or if they aren’t the way they should be at their age, or something. Call me crazy, but I swear I’m an adult stuck in a teenager’s body.

I’ve been keeping to myself more than usual, finding myself in a world of books, video games, and music opposed to hanging out with my friends on Friday nights and weekends. Not to mention I’m still suffering from an emotional breakdown due to a “friend” who I thought I really liked, gave my all to, to only have my heart ripped out, and they’re clueless about it—they have no idea what they did and wonder why I never want to talk to them anymore. Is everyone so ignorant nowadays or is it just a somel of people?

Friday, December 18, 2009


From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were; I have not seen
As others saw; I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I loved, I loved alone.
Then- in my childhood, in the dawn
Of a most stormy life- was drawn
From every depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that round me rolled
In its autumn tint of gold,
From the lightning in the sky
As it passed me flying by,
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heaven was blue)
Of a demon in my view.

By. Edgar Allan Poe

Thursday, December 17, 2009

If a man treats woman...

This advice was passed along to me from a friend of mine; it was great to swallow - so I wanted to share it.


If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that’s not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can’t "be friends."

A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend.

Don’t settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

Don’t stay because you think "it will get better." You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who’ve got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn’t marry them when he got them pregnant.

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man’s behavior. Change comes from within.

Don’t EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else’s man.

Oh Lord! If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.

All men are not dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two-way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...There is nothing cute about baggage. Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to complete you. A relationship consists of two whole individuals. Look for someone complimentary, not supplementary.

Dating is fun; even if he doesn’t turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes. When a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him—he takes it for granted.

Don’t fully commit to a man who doesn’t give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Why would he treat you any differently?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

the primal curse

According to traditional Christian theology,
human beings have fallen from divine grace.
Satan tempted Adam and Eve to defy
the command of God not to eat of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil.
Eve disobeyed.
Original Sin was born. All descendants of Adam and Eve have fallen from a blissful state of innocence and communion with God.

Since we have inherited Adam and Eve's guilt, albeit by a somewhat obscure mechanism,
we are condemned to a life of suffering and toil ("the primal curse"),
whether in seeking food or - in the case of women - giving birth...

Monday, December 14, 2009

Toward Nothing

I am sorry to make you bothered;
sorry to mess up your world,
sorry to disappoint you,
sorry to put you down,
sorry to pull you hard...
If only I could choose myself,
I wouldn't be here, breathing next to you
I hadn't have to make you mad,
I know I am unwanted
Nobody sees me
Neither you do,
I really do promise to make you proud of this stupid woman,
To prove that I am existing and my dreams are about to be true
I want you to believe me
Whatever ignorance is the crown,
it's all on your hands
I am sorry to disgust your life,
Like repeatedly sorries won't change a thing
Thus I would say:

Wished that God didn't make suicide as a sin...

Friday, December 4, 2009

Jelly Jelly Jelly

I'm like a jelly
Shaked up confusing color Cracked up and about to eat Shaped but meant to keep standing upright quiet Touched though nothing seemed precious
Ignore or swallow me,
That's what the nature has brought Then?
I'm just a jelly ...

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

The Great Superhero Ever

Biasanya anak-anak yang jauh dari orang tuanya merasa kangen sekali dengan mamanya.
Biasanya apapun yang kita rindukan adalah mama, yang kita ingin sekali bertemu adalah mama.

Lalu bagaimana dengan papa?

Mungkin mama lebih sering menanyakan keadaan anaknya setiap hari.
Tapi taukah kamu jika papamu yang mengingatkannya unutk menelfonmu?

Mungkin mama yang lebih sering mengajakmu bercerita...
Tapi taukah kamu sepulangnya ia bekerja dengan wajah lelah ia selalu menanyakan kabarmu dari mama mu?

waktu kecil...

Papa mengajari putri kecilnya bermain sepeda.
Setelah dia mengganggap kamu bisa ia melepaskan roda bantu di sepedamu.
Saat itu mama menutup mata karena takut anaknya terjatuh lalu terluka... Tapi ayah dengan yakin menatapmu mengayuh sepeda dengan pelan karena dia tahu putri kecilnya pasti bisa.

Saat kamu menangis meronta meminta boneka yang baru,mama menatapmu iba, tetapi ayah mengatakan dengan tegas "kita beli nanti, tapi tidak sekarang" karena ia tidak ingin kamu menjadi manja dengan semua tuntutan yang selalu di penuhi.

Ketika kamu remaja,

kamu mulai menuntut untuk keluar malam. Lalu papa mulai bersikap lebih tegas ketika mengatakan "tidak".
itu untuk menjagamu karena kamu adalah sesuatu yang sangat berharga.
Lalu kamu masuk ke kamar, membanting pintu.
Tapi yang datang mengetok pintu dan membujuk mu adalah mama.
Taukah kamu, saat itu dia memejamkan matanya dan menahan diri, karena dia sangat ingin mengikuti keinginanmu. Tapi lagi-lagi dia harus menjagamu.

Saat seorang cowok mulai sering datang mencarimu, Papa akan memasang wajah paling cool sedunia. Dan sesekali menguping atau mengintip saat kamu sedang berdua di ruang tamu. Tahukah kamu, dia merasa cemburu?

Saat dia melonggarkan sedikit peraturan, kamu melanggar jam malamnya.
Ia duduk di ruang tamu menunggumu pulang dengan sangat khawatir. Wajah khawatir itu mengeras ketika melihat putri kecilnya pulang terlalu larut.
Dia marah.
Karena hal yang di takutinya akhirnya datang...
"Putri kecilnya sudah tidak ada lagi"

Saat papa sedikit memaksamu unutk menjadi seorang dokter, ketahuilah bahwa ia hanya memikirkan masa depanmu nanti. Tapi toh dia tetap tersenyum saat pilihanmu adalah menjadi seorang penulis.

Sampai saat papa harus melepasmu di bandara. Bahkan badannya terlalu kaku untuk memelukmu. Ia hanya tersenyum sambil memberi nasehat ini-itu.
Dia ingin menangis seperti mama yang menangis dan memelukmu erat.
Tapi dia hanya menghapus sedikit air mata di sudut matanya dan menepuk pundakmu berkata
"Jaga diri baik-baik..." agar kamu kuat untuk pergi.

Saat kamu butuh uang untuk membiayai uang semester dan kehidupanmu, orang pertama yang mengerutkan kening adalah Papa. Berusaha mencari jalan agar anaknya bisa merasa sama dengan yang lain.

Ketika permintaanmu bukan lagi sekedar meminta boneka baru, dan ia tau ia tidak bisa memberikan, dia sangat ingin mengatakan "iya nak, nanti kita beli"
dan padahal kenyataannya adalah "tidak bisa" dari bibirnya.
Tahukah kamu, Ia merasa gagal membuat anaknya tersenyum.

Saat kamu sakit dan tidak berada di dekatnya. Papa terlalu khawatir sampai kadang sedikit membentak berkata, "Sudah di bilang jangan minum air dingin!".
Berbeda dengan mama yang memperhatikanmu dengan lembut...
Ketahuilah, saat itu ia benar-benar khawatir dengan keadaanmu.

Dan di saatnya nanti kamu wisuda sebagai seorang sarjana. Papa adalah orang pertama yang berdiri dan memberi tepuk tangan untuk mu.
Dia yg tersenyum bangga dan puas melihat "putri kecilku yang tidak manja berhasil tumbuh dewasa, dan telah menjadi seseorang..."

Sampai saat seorang teman hidupmu datang dan meminta izin mengambilmu darinya.
Papa akan sangat berhati-hati memberikan izin, karena ia tau pria itu yang nanti akan menggantikan posisinya.

Dan saat Papa melihat mu duduk di panggung pernikahan bersama seseorang yang di anggapnya pantas menggantikannya, Papa pergi kebelakang panggung dan menangis
"Tugasku telah selesai dengan baik. Putri kecilku yang lucu telah menjadi wanita yang cantik..."

Papa hanya bisa menunggu kedatanganmu dan cucu-cucunya sesekali untuk menjenguknya dengan rambut yang telah memutih dan badan yang tak lagi kuat untuk menjagamu dari bahaya.


Papa adalah sosok yang harus selalu terlihat kuat, bahkan ketika dia tidak kuat untuk tidak menangis.
Harus terlihat tegas, bahkan saat dia ingin memanjakanmu.
Papa juga orang pertama yang selalu yakin bahwa "kamu bisa" dalam hal apapun.

Tersenyum dan bersyukurlah ketika kamu bisa merasakan kasih sayang seorang papa hingga tugasnya selesai.
Kamu adalah salah satu orang yg beruntung karena papa adalah sosok superhero yang sesungguhnya, ia hebat dan melindungimu dari apapun yang akan membahayakanmu...

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Immortal Palace

why it is so hard to swallow a chaos?
tell me that this cycle is leaving its place
thus people would not staring one another whatsover;
that damn little voice never be heard,
so tired of being abandoned
what else should I give though?
exhausting in the opera,
dying in the lake,
bursting on the cloud,
and waiting for the horse to come...
as if ever come;
no it won't ever arrive.
sooner I can pray for myself,
to find a sweet peace,
to seek harder to elsewhere...
sure, it is eligible for me to
land my head on the throne
say my illution myth of neverland
then I would rather go away...

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Parkour Thriller Zombies

A short film doing parkour inspired by Michael Jackson's Thriller video.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Hamlet Soliloquy

Act 2 Scene 2: O, What A Rogue And Peasant Slave Am I

O, what a rogue and peasant slave am I!
Is it not monstrous that this player here,
But in a fiction, in a dream of passion,
Could force his soul so to his own conceit
That from her working all his visage wann'd,
Tears in his eyes, distraction in's aspect,
A broken voice, and his whole function suiting
With forms to his conceit? and all for nothing!
For Hecuba!

What's Hecuba to him, or he to Hecuba,
That he should weep for her? What would he do,
Had he the motive and the cue for passion
That I have? He would drown the stage with tears
And cleave the general ear with horrid speech,
Make mad the guilty and appal the free,
Confound the ignorant, and amaze indeed
The very faculties of eyes and ears. Yet I,
A dull and muddy-mettled rascal, peak,
Like John-a-dreams, unpregnant of my cause,
And can say nothing; no, not for a king,
Upon whose property and most dear life
A damn'd defeat was made. Am I a coward?
Who calls me villain? breaks my pate across?
Plucks off my beard, and blows it in my face?
Tweaks me by the nose? gives me the lie i' the throat,
As deep as to the lungs? who does me this?

'Swounds, I should take it: for it cannot be
But I am pigeon-liver'd and lack gall
To make oppression bitter, or ere this
I should have fatted all the region kites
With this slave's offal: bloody, bawdy villain!
Remorseless, treacherous, lecherous, kindless villain!
O, vengeance!

Why, what an ass am I! This is most brave,
That I, the son of a dear father murder'd,
Prompted to my revenge by heaven and hell,
Must, like a whore, unpack my heart with words,
And fall a-cursing, like a very drab,
A scullion!

Fie upon't! foh! About, my brain! I have heard
That guilty creatures sitting at a play
Have by the very cunning of the scene
Been struck so to the soul that presently
They have proclaim'd their malefactions;
For murder, though it have no tongue, will speak
With most miraculous organ. I'll have these players
Play something like the murder of my father
Before mine uncle: I'll observe his looks;
I'll tent him to the quick: if he but blench,
I know my course. The spirit that I have seen
May be the devil: and the devil hath power
To assume a pleasing shape; yea, and perhaps
Out of my weakness and my melancholy,
As he is very potent with such spirits,
Abuses me to damn me: I'll have grounds
More relative than this: the play 's the thing
Wherein I'll catch the conscience of the king.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Primeira Batucada Courau De Ouro, Jakarta

Contra-Mestre Papa Leguas

Contra-Mestre Parente

Contra-Mestre Casquinha

the Roda

The Exciting and Fun Batucada

we are...

my signed tee!

photo session

promise, to see you again in another batucada I'll be better :)

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Parkour Jakarta, One Giant Leap 2009

One Giant Leap with Parkour Indonesia
“Jump, Drop and Roll to save the Universe”

“Jakarta, 26 September 2009 – Sebuah rekor dunia untuk aktivitas peduli pemanasan global terbesar dilakukan dalam satu hari. Aktivitas ini adalah bagian dari One Giant Leap climate change campaign. Indonesia melalui Parkour Indonesia (PKID-red) akan ambil bagian dalam acara “global climate jam” dan menunjukkan dukungan terhadap kampanye yang akan melibatkan 3000 praktisi parkour seluruh dunia dari 75 kota di 32 negara.”

“One Giant Leap” Climate Change Campaign adalah sebuah acara peduli lingkungan (pemanasan global-red) yang berbeda dengan konsep yang pernah ada, dimana pelaku parkour di seluruh dunia akan menyuarakan kepada pemerintah lokal perihal perubahan iklim yang akhir-akhir ini terjadi di dunia; perubahan ke arah yg lebih buruk tentunya, seperti pengeroposan ozon yang semakin mengkhawatirkan, polusi, dan efek rumah kaca menimbulkan ketidak seimbangan perubahan iklim cuaca yang signifikan.

Walaupun tujuan utamanya agar pemerintah melakukan suatu langkah penanggulangan/perbaikan, akan tetapi pesan ini juga ditujukan kepada semua orang yang terlibat dalam perubahan iklim yang terjadi.

Dimotori oleh Sandbag Climate Campaign (NGO asal Inggris), dibantu oleh Parkour Generation (Komunitas Parkour Inggris – red) secara global dan juga Parkour Indonesia untuk regional Indonesia.

Di Indonesia, “One Giant Leap” akan diadakan di beberapa kota yaitu Jakarta, Bandung, Samarinda, Solo dan Jogjakarta. Khusus untuk area Jakarta, dilaksanakan pukul 07.00 s/d 12.00 WIB, di Kompleks Olahraga Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan, Jakarta, dengan aktivitas parkour ”Leave no Trash”. Para traceurs (pelaku parkour-red) akan melakukan aktivitas parkour sekaligus membersihkan sampah (non organik) di rute yang dilaluinya.

(part 1)

(part 2)

(Mike's interview)

**credits: Daniel Giovanni aka qronoz**

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

never mind...

Okay, here it is!
Honestly, I don’t feel like comfortable to post something like a bit personal about me.
I mean, about what I feel, right now.
But this is my blog, right?
And I don’t think people would visit my blog at least once a day.
Who’d do that?

Well, this is about…err- something called… err- emotion.
No. This is much about…love?
No, I ain’t really interested in it nor put my time on that thing.
But let’s call it a feel-to-like-somebody.

Let’s get started!
(am I competiting or what?)
This man got my eyes on him for such a looong time hahahaha (who?)
I don’t really care about that though, I always avoid and pretend like I don’t have that feeling.
I used to, mate… I did that!
But now I can’t.
Lame, aren’t I?
I cannot hide how happy I am to see him around. How it feels so good to me to be in one place with him and et cetera…
And at the same time I feel like an idiot.

Why is that?

Because I cannot stop my eyes to watching him, his gesture and expression.
When I do that, I am scared that somebody or even he will know that!
And then I’ll be covered shameful because it’s like:
“Gotcha! I know it, lads..I always know it! You’ve been watching him every minutes! Hahahaha.. I KNOW IT!”
And then I’ll be dead there with the stupid-est face you’ve ever seen.


I hate this kinda feeling. I told you before, dear blog!
Right, I don’t wanna share a lot about this.
I JUST want to share ‘a bit’ of my feeling on my blog to people who are so nice so great and so cool because they visit this blog and read my stupid writings and all.
I ain’t kidding, mates.

So I am gonna say that the backsong for this post is from Avril Lavigne - Things I’ll Never Say :D
Search it, listen to it, and voila! LOL.
No, I don’t ask him to marry me or something. But that’s, perhaps, the direct metaphor- the proper one to show what I feel.

See you when I see you!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Traceur.RU - WIDE Traceurs

They're from Parkour Rusia.
The Quality of this video is just awesome! either the contents itself...
<3 parkour more.
gotta train more hardcore than ever!

Saturday, September 19, 2009

The Glove

I can't stop loving him
He wasn't my somebody
He wasn't my lover
He didn't have any idea about who I am

I can't stop loving him
He moved with those magnificent twinkles
He made me shaking
He killed my hard side

Yes I can't stop loving him
It's just so wonderful having a man like him in this world
It never been so good and sad before
It was him and it will be only him...

Again, I can't stop loving him
He cared the others with such pure love
He got people love him right in the heart
He loved people like me though doesn't really know what we were fond of besides him...

Gosh, I can't stop loving him
He was innocent
He struggled hard for life
He amused me a lot
He opened up my mind
He brought me something new,
a new confidence...

He is not here
He is with God
He cannot make me happy again alive
But what he had left here,
they are enough to make me at least smile and cry at the same time

You are there, aren't you?
Hear me, please God allow me...
You have made me seeing the world and my personal life more beautiful than before
YES you did- I ain't kidding,
I wished we could meet and you could see my happy tears
I lost my sentences, then I talked to you in my mind and using imagination right?
It is beautiful indeed

You were dangerous and will stay in that way forever...

Sunday, September 13, 2009


Crowded doesn't make feel joyful
It seems that the world has left me
For such a short time;
quite feel so long...
I, for kind of ego, do not know what I want
I try to feel, to hear, to see what it is

Loner is perhaps my middle name
I am not fond of caring others,
since nobody ever love me,
or wanna hear my soul needed help
Guess it is a revenge
No. I don't do revenge

I need some people to accompany me
Now, feeling and crying are the best that I can do
Though I know it could be better...
But just remember,
When I love people- I really mean it
No matter what their status,
Mostly happen, they do not love me in the way like I care for them...

And now when I think I want to add another lover,
that one doesn't look at me...

So tiring.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Parkour Expedition

This video is just awesome!
thinking when I can do those moves...
enjoy! :)

Sunday, August 23, 2009

The Impact of Social Networking and the Online World on Indonesian Culture

Online All the Time: Youth and New Media.
The Impact of Social Networking and the Online World on Indonesian Culture

Being in a social networking website is like living in a village. People share thoughts, emotions, and news. It’s more than entertaining thing which physical distances and time don’t matter. Still, interactions can occur on a global scale, 24 hours a day and 7 days a week. It means we do something from local to global engagement. Imagine what happens if people come together making a mass collaboration through the online world?

Realize it or not, by join the social networking websites, we have a huge chance to show ourselves, Indonesia. This is really a high time for us to get a name, to get more attention, and to get more love for our lovely land Indonesia. Besides to let the world knows about Indonesia, it can be used to strengthen the existence of Indonesia, and to run a modern movement for good cause.

Indonesia is well known to the world. From what’s happening now in our country, we can spread it all over the world by mention it on our webpage or social networking sites. Exactly it will run visibly for people to read and know on the net. There are many examples where news and information are firstly known from online world before it appears on other media like television, radio, or newspaper. For instance, the tags and hashtags about Iran election and the entertainment news about the dead of Michael Jackson and Mbah Surip (an Indonesian reggae musician). The online world offers fast news-update. Thus, people know globally what happens right now.

Indonesia exists as a good and rich country and that’s why we can show it up through the online world. We can promote about our country to the world. Tell them about our beauty, lands, beaches, hills, where people can go hiking, camping, surfing, relaxing, and even learning traditional dances, martial arts, language, or just tasting our foods and getting a traditional massage. Besides, the most important thing is to claim what we belong. So that nobody can steal them from us. We were completely sad and angry when a few months ago our neighbor claimed our stuff and won our islands through the international court, weren’t we?

The last is to make a movement for a good cause which means we do our words. It happens to support our government and to invite Indonesian to hold hands together and not to be afraid of anything which has tried to put us down. For instance, lately there’s Indonesia Unite, a movement which has shown upright to beat the terrorism issue that has attacked our country. It brought up Indonesian together and already became number one trending topic on (a social networking site where #indonesiaunite first appeared). It made people around the world knew this movement and supported us. From celebs to common people, we are together to be a unity. Another example is adapting global to our local culture. These things are modern kebaya, casual batik, modern keroncong, wedding gown with traditional taste, assimilate the food recipes, and many more. This is what we call real life impact; truly happens in our life and brings benefits to our culture. The majority interaction on the social networking and online world is mainly for leisure but with little means an individual rendezvous can grow to a larger and useful campaign and life.

Monday, August 17, 2009

To 64th Independence Day of Indonesia From Me

This is not a party,
Where we can get naughty
But we are supposed to get through to our majesty
Because today is as sweet as candy...

It's okay, we don't get an A
At least we still try everyday
We still stand strong with our pray
Struggle more like an essence of clay,
Though hard to say some of us still chew the hay...

O'buddy, please don't talk ratty
Either act unpleasant to lose our dignity
We are not some kind of hypocrisy
In fact, we play the role of equality,
And this is our duty
To prove that we formed a unity
We must be happy
From now on, we are the priority...

Happy 64th Independence Day Indonesia, my beloved country !

- Amelia, your generation -

Thursday, August 13, 2009

4:1 and ginga

This is not my intention to make it overstatement
I do what I want to do,
and I feel what I really truly feel,
Thus I am, now, typing what, I guess, I cannot handle to keep in...

Let me get it out
Because nobody could blame my statement
Because there's my human rights, still
Because this is my blog ;)

It swings me
It kicks,
It rolls, I am upside-down
The music is what I love, trad and quirky
and never I was interested to it,
I had never.
Try it and tired
as same as what I do with the jump
my world,
So I don't cheat my self,
I never wanted to,
I am honest to what I am doing

silly, thou...
I bet I am in love with them,
lose control while wanna try more,
I can just sit and I can't
Oh my....

I should not stop doing these,
maybe when busy comes- just manage the time to fit to keep moving,
I am a stupid geek
never exclaimed and people know nothing,
so what?

That France's art of movement and that Brazil's art of fighting,
and yes! you know what I mean...

P.S: just laugh if you think I'm a freaky weirdo, about this :)

Thursday, August 6, 2009

Letak Kecantikan Wanita

Untuk membentuk bibir yang menawan, ucapkanlah kata-kata kebaikan.
Untuk mendapatkan mata yang indah, carilah kebaikan pada setiap orang yang anda jumpai.
Untuk mendapatkan bentuk badan yang langsing, bagikanlah makanan dengan mereka yang kelaparan.
Untuk mendapatkan rambut yang indah, mintalah seorang anak kecil untuk menyisirnya dengan jemarinya setiap hari.
Untuk mendapatkan sikap tubuh yang indah, berjalanlah dengan segala ilmu pengetahuan, dan anda tidak akan pernah berjalan sendirian.

Manusia, jauh melebihi segala ciptaan lain. Perlu senantiasa berubah, diperbaharui, dibentuk kembali, dan diampuni. Jadi, jangan pernah kecilkan seseorang dari hati anda. Apabila anda sudah melakukan semuanya itu, ingatlah senantiasa. Jika suatu ketika anda memerlukan pertolongan, akan senantiasa ada tangan terulur. Dan dengan bertambahnya usia anda, anda akan semakin mensyukuri telah diberi dua tangan, satu untuk menolong diri anda sendiri dan satu lagi untuk menolong orang lain.

Kecantikan wanita bukan terletak pada pakaian yang dikenakan, bukan pada bentuk tubuh, atau cara dia menyisir rambutnya.
Kecantikan wanita terdapat pada mata, cara dia memandang dunia. Karena di matanya terletak gerbang menuju ke setiap hati manusia, di mana cinta dapat berkembang.

Kecantikan wanita bukan pada kehalusan wajah.

Tetapi pada kecantikan yang murni, terpancar pada jiwanya, yang dengan penuh kasih memberikan perhatian dan cinta dia berikan.

Dan kecantikan itu akan tumbuh sepanjang waktu.

Sunday, August 2, 2009


I am a dishonest person
A dishonest man that you can trust to be dishonest
Honestly, it's the honest one that you want to watch out for...
Because you can never predict when I'm going to do something incredibly...

Thursday, July 30, 2009

to the sweet marvelous eyes

A blindly groping child I came to you,
All life a strange confusion to mine eyes
Thine eyes met mine and in subtile wise,
A sense of beauty dawned, and sight was free.
A deaf, unbeeding child you foundest me
Hearing but echoes of my questioning cries;
It's clear, sweet voice awoke, with strange surprise,
My spirit to a sense of harmony.
Dear friend, our eyes are closed, for you to sleep
But hundreds, waking, bless us for their sight.
And though your voice is stilled, yet we who weep
Hear sweetest music, listening alright.
A witness in our memory, we keep
To God's eternal harmony and light...

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

not a weak fur

I am in the middle of my perspective
Wherever I move,
gotta meet a new dirt
can't get away from a prob
Though the trees mercy me for my own honest, whenever
I cannot think clear,
whatever it comes around
I know that this is so true, yet not wrong
Too much to ask, too little answers provided
Whoever I am,
I will stand still not to fall- not to put my self down,
Anything towards me to face,
I have my faith and my dream to shine
Thus I gonna do,
I will ignore the world...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

His Last Walk

Not many know how much you did
When you walked on broken feet to save us
This is your last walk, but it's not the end
And with faith in hand, you're not the only one
So come on, come on
You're not the only one, let's get this point across,
What are you waiting for?
Let's get this point across while we still have the time
Let's get this point across and live eternal life, let's get it across...

Friday, July 3, 2009

to end the rapture

The wind of life and air from above,
smells of death
Angels sing of the end
There's nothing you say and nothing you try,
can change time
Human race prepares to die...

Monday, June 29, 2009

mju and her inspiring + encouraging words

Gue terinspirasi sama couraging words dari temen baik gue,

she told me this:
"Mungkin semua orang yang senang itu juga kamuflase aja kali
Kalo gw mikirnya pasti masih banyak orang yang lebih susah dari gw,
mereka boro-boro punya waktu untuk bete karena sibuk mikir ntar gimana bisa makan,
jadi gw bersyukur ma semua yg gw punya, dan untuk mengubah situasi gw,
harus gw-nya yang berubah/adaptasi...
karena dunia ga akan berubah.
Jadi konsen ma yang lo mau aja dripada bete ma yang lo ga mau.
Begitu hun, semoga that could make your day better :)
Btw baca buku The Secret, itu buku lumayan uplifting.

I just felt that I was being noticed tham I RULE MY OWN LIFE, NOBODY COULD CONTROL ME.
Dan gue lately lupa itu...
Gue terlalu sibuk dengan pikiran gue sendiri, dengan apa yang orang lain bilang,
apa yang orang lain udah lakuin,
apa yang orang lain tuntut dan harapin ke gue,
dan gue juga sadar kalo gue gaperlu telan mentah mentah omongan mereka...
Karena mereka gatau gue, gatau..Even ma parents who think they know EVERYSINGLETHING bout me.
I mean it.

Mungkin sekarang gue harus belajar untuk nutup mata gue sedikit buat ngeliat orang orang diatas gue,
mati rasa sedikit buat apa yang orang orang pikir tentang gue,
tuli-in telinga sedikit buat dengar ocehan orang orang yang notabene talk bullshit tentang gue,
dan pastinya membiarkan badan gue jalan ke arah yang GUE INGINKAN,
bukan yang orang lain harapkan.

Gue harus belajar senyum sama semua orang dan hal yang menyakitkan,
belajar tertawa buat orang orang dan hal hal yang lalu-lalang di kehidupan gue, yang selalu gue pikirin...
(yeah gue gabisa ignore comments-compliments-anger orang ke gue...)

Belajar buat CUEK (dikit dan lebih dari sekarang)!
Bikin diri senang dengan yang bener bener gue mau...Penting banget!
Gue lahir sendiri, hidup sendiri, mati sendiri...Kenapa juga gue mesti bikin diri menderita dengan hal hal abstrak tentang kesempurnaan?

Thanks a lot a lot a looooot buat mju yang sangat dewasa, baik, cuek, keren, peduli, friendly, macho :D dan sangat menginspirasi gue.
She's the man! :kiss:

Well, do I look like care to those suckers who bother my mind?
suck it down!

**this is mju**


Sunday, June 28, 2009

me think so, me don't think so

I cannot push my self
But, did I push my self?
Maybe it is not my way,
it is not for me,
it is not in my blood,
and God gives the sign.

So why don't I just quit anyway?
Why I keep on doing this?
Since I do zero while moving it...

Some people say, "You're doing good, needs time!"
My mouth replies, "Yeah, me think so...Thanks."
My mind thinks, "No, you just waste your time!"
My heart feels, "can you just step off? Shame on you!"
My-myself yells, "Shuddup! I don't know what to do now..."

What do I do?

Friday, June 26, 2009


There is no sacred stone on earth
However I am searching
of nothing.
The hesitant which captures
a woman of no importance
The sunshine tells me,
that one day I could be
a woman who can smile widely
nevertheless whe lost everything...

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Personality Quiz? OK.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Monday, June 1, 2009

no beast on the land

the spell of deplorable word has spoken
she goes inside the palace
she tries running
she falls down
when the throne is given to someone else's
she would be fulled of tears
no more lies
no more mirror
she doens't want to go
the old man says;
when it's begun, it's already begun...
if the dragon flies over the top of everest
she would find the beauty of cries beneath
no more wander
no more magic
she faces the reality...

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Obstacles are the Stepping Stones of Success by Harvey Mackay

A man was walking in the park one day when he came upon a cocoon with a small opening. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through the little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It looked like it had gotten as far as it could, so the man decided to help the butterfly. He used his pocketknife and snipped the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily, but something was strange. The butterfly had a swollen body and shriveled wings. The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected at any moment the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time. Neither happened. In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and deformed wings. It was never able to fly.

What the man in his kindness and haste did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to emerge was natural. It was nature's way of forcing fluid from its body into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom. Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives.

If we were allowed to go through life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. And we could never fly.

History has shown us that the most celebrated winners usually encountered heartbreaking obstacles before they triumphed. They won because they refused to become discouraged by their defeats.

My good friend, Lou Holtz, football coach of the University of South Carolina, once told me, "Show me someone who has done something worthwhile, and I'll show you someone who has overcome adversity."

Beethoven composed his greatest works after becoming deaf. George Washington was snowed in through a treacherous winter at Valley Forge . Abraham Lincoln was raised in poverty. Albert Einstein was called a slow learner, retarded and uneducable. If Christopher Columbus had turned back, no one could have blamed him, considering the constant adversity he endured.

As an elementary student, actor James Earl Jones (a.k.a. Darth Vader) stuttered so badly he communicated with friends and teachers using written notes.

Itzhak Perlman, the incomparable concert violinist, was born to parents who survived a Nazi concentration camp and has been paralyzed from the waist down since the age of four.

Chester Carlson, a young inventor, took his idea to 20 big corporations in the 1940s. After seven years of rejections, he was able to persuade Haloid, a small company in Rochester , N.Y. , to purchase the rights to his electrostatic paper- copying process. Haloid has since become Xerox Corporation.

Thomas Edison tried over 2,000 experiments before he was able to get his light bulb to work. Upon being asked how he felt about failing so many times, he replied, "I never failed once. I invented the light bulb. It just happened to be a 2,000-step process."

Franklin Delano Roosevelt, elected President of the United States for four terms, had been stricken with polio at the age of 39.

Persistence paid off for General Douglas MacArthur. After applying for admission to West Point twice, he applied a third time and was accepted. The rest is history.

In 1927 the head instructor of the John Murray Anderson Drama School , instructed student Lucille Ball, to "Try any other profession. Any other."

Buddy Holly was fired from the Decca record label in 1956 by Paul Cohen, Nashville "Artists and Repertoire Man" Cohen called Holly "the biggest no-talent I ever worked with."

Academy Award-winning writer, producer and director Woody Allen failed motion picture production at New York University (NYU) and City College of New York. He also flunked English at NYU.

Helen Keller, the famous blind author and speaker, said: "Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, vision cleared, ambition inspired and success achieved. Silver is purified in fire and so are we. It is in the most trying times that our real character is shaped and revealed."

Mackay's Moral: There is no education like the university of adversity.

*credits to: Dra. Wiwik Andreani, my Grammar IV lecturer!

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