Sunday, February 28, 2010

Warning by Jenny Joseph

When I am an old woman,
I shall wear purple
With a red hat which doesn’t go,
and doesn’t suit me.
And I shall spend my pension
on brandy and summer gloves and satin sandles,
And say we’ve no money for butter.

I shall sit down on the pavement when I’m tired
and gobble up samples in shops
and press alarm bells
and run with my stick along public railings,
and make up for the sobriety of my youth.
I shall go out in my slippers in the rain
and pick flowers in other people’s gardens
and learn to spit!
You can wear terrible shirts and grow more fat
and eat three pounds of sausages at ago,
or only bread and pickles for a week,
and hoard pens and pencils
and beermats and things in boxes.

But now we must have clothes that keep us dry,
and pay our rent
and not swear in the street,
and set a good example for the children.
We must have friends to dinner
and read the papers.
But maybe I ought to practice a little now?

So people who know me
are not too shocked and surprised
when suddenly I am old,
And start to wear purple!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010


This is it.
Eventually the time has really really come!
haaaaa, been thinking about it in the last semester and, as a matter of fact, it's happening now in my 6th semester.

What is that?

Well, it is the thesis.


People usually recognized it as Skripsi. But no matter what it is called, still, it is a hidden threat!
Sorry, I mean the threat is something challenging. Why it is challenging? at least for me, I gotta prove and push myself to dig my knowledge and ability about try to know something in a way of different side.
I have to find 'a problem' that really exist implicitly/explicitly in a piece of work and art, regarding to its history and culture.
Find something in it about 'how it can be like that?'
Make my hypotesis, and do some researches like madman to prove my hypothesis whether it's true or not.
More likely, whether my assumption is strong enough for them (re: lecturers) to put their faith on my belief.

It's hard, you know...
This is my first time making a real scientific writing, for my scholar undergraduate.
And for the sake of my parents and my own fate, I would do my hardest and be crazy about it! Pursue the A for thesis? Of course it is POSSIBLE.

Bytheway, The first time Mam Wiwik (one of my favo lecturer) told the entire class about "handing the proposal chapter one in the end of this semester", we were suddenly OMG-ing and sighing smoothly.
We knew it would come sooner or later. But at the first day coming in the 6th term? Never ever imagined that!
Mam Wiwik stated that we should have prepared the topic within 2 weeks. Make sure that we chose the topic from the heart. Why was that, we asked inside. 
Well, Mam Wiwik continued, if we didn't 'want' it from our heart then it would likely turn to be hard and boring to do. She made us clear that doing thesis wasn't a thing to play, it was about our fate. FATE. DESTINY.

After that, we were buzzing the class. Talking about it, showing our fear, afraidness, and yeah you-name-it surpised feeling.
A day later, we still (trying) to share and brainstorm to find topic. We obviously need each other to boost and realize that there are so may goddammit issue to be brought up in the thesis.
Oh almost forgot, Miss Tjoo Hong Sing (another cool lecturer) strictly told us to make DIFFERENT topic or theme of thesis. Because the lecturers are enough with the existed thesis and the same-nearly-similar topic brought up every bloody year.
THIS is what makes us more terrified. C'mon, it is our first time. We even don't have any idea what to research about. We got jetlag!
It is not an excuse. But, I was trying trying trying to find topics to be related to some theory of literature criticism

Alhamdulillah, I sort of found it. After talking and asking for some suggestion and ideas from the Binusian senior in The Jakarta Post, Dede (thank youuuu, dude!), I likely saw the brightside of seeing thesis's topic from another perspective of view.
Maybe I would use Marxist or else to support the thesis. But at least now I know how would I dig the 'problem'.
I have to discuss it with my lecturer soon, it can be a good topic or (please don't!) just another boring-topic.
I choose Hunter S. Thompson's 1970s novel Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
If you don't know it, well, I will give you a glimpse about it:
The basic synopsis revolves around journalist Raoul Duke and his attorney, Dr. Gonzo, as they arrive in 1970s Las Vegas to report on the Mint 400 motorcycle race. However, they soon abandon their work and begin experimenting with a variety of recreational drugs,such as LSD, cocaine, alcohol, mescaline, and cannabis. This leads to a series of bizarre hallucinogenic trips, during which they destroy hotel rooms, wreck cars, and have visions of anthropomorphic desert animals, etc.

Interesting eh?
Unfortunately, I hardly find the ebook or digital novel of it!
ooooh blimey...
I will ask my other smarty dude, Sidik (the Jakarta Post, doing his Master skripsi at UI), for help.

Actually, been thinking to use Edith Wharton's 1890s novel The House of Mirth.
The novel talks about: New York high-class society mixed with personal desire of a woman to live in luxurious and to get a wealthy marriage - until she in the end is dead because of overdosed.
You know, the victim of capitalist (or its subordinate roots).

Again, need to discuss with lecturers so that I'm sure enough it is what I really interest in. Man, I'll be doing it for this (about) 5 or less months and the next term, and my undergraduate thesis.
I am not playing with it. This is dead serious, man...

Got to search more of them.
See ya around!


Thursday, February 18, 2010

Women ...

Sure God created man before woman.  But then you always make a rough draft before the final masterpiece.  ~Author Unknown

A male gynecologist is like an auto mechanic who has never owned a car.  ~Carrie Snow

The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think.  ~Author Unknown

A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon.  ~Arnold Haultain

Whatever women do they must do twice as well as men to be thought half as good.  Luckily, this is not difficult.  ~Charlotte Whitton

Women are always beautiful.
  ~Ville Valo

The two women exchanged the kind of glance women use when no knife is handy.
  ~Ellery Queen

Curve:  The loveliest distance between two points
.  ~Mae West

Women get the last word in every argument.  Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.  ~Author Unknown

Next to the wound, what women make best is the bandage.
  ~Jules Barbey d'Aurevilly

A pessimist is a man who thinks all women are bad.  An optimist is a man who hopes they are.  ~Chauncey Mitchell Depew

The rarest thing in the world is a woman who is pleased with photographs of herself.  ~Elizabeth Metcalf

A man's face is his autobiography.  A woman's face is her work of fiction.  ~Oscar Wilde

Men get laid, but women get screwed. 
~Quentin Crisp

The most popular image of the female despite the exigencies of the clothing trade is all boobs and buttocks, a hallucinating sequence of parabolae and bulges.
  ~Germaine Greer

However, I'm not denyin' the women are foolish:  God Almighty made 'em to match the men.
  ~George Eliot, "The Harvest Supper," Adam Bede

Women really do rule the world.  They just haven't figured it out yet.  When they do, and they will, we're all in big big trouble.  ~"Doctor Leon,"

Ah, women.  They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.  ~Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche

I expect Woman will be the last thing civilized by Man.
  ~George Meredith

Men who don't like girls with brains don't like girls. 
~Mignon McLaughlin, The Second Neurotic's Notebook, 1966

Be to her virtues very kind,
Be to her faults a little blind.

~Matthew Prior

They may talk of a comet, or a burning mountain, or some such bagatelle; but to me a modest woman, dressed out in all her finery, is the most tremendous object of the whole creation.  ~Oliver Goldsmith

If women didn't exist, all the money in the world would have no meaning.  ~Aristotle Onassis 

It is only rarely that one can see in a little boy the promise of a man, but one can almost always see in a little girl the threat of a woman.  ~Alexandre Dumas, fils

A woman should soften but not weaken a man.  ~Sigmund Freud

Women are in league with each other, a secret conspiracy of hearts and pheromones.  ~Camille Paglia  

A woman wears her tears like jewelry.  ~Author Unknown

If a girl looks swell when she meets you, who gives a damn if she's late?  Nobody.  ~J.D. Salinger, Catcher in the Rye 

No woman wants to see herself too clearly.  ~Mignon McLaughlin

I would rather trust a woman's instinct than a man's reason.  ~Stanley Baldwin

Women do not find it difficult nowadays to behave like men, but they often find it extremely difficult to behave like gentlemen.  ~Compton Mackenzie

A woman who cannot be ugly is not beautiful.  ~Karl Kraus
Do you not know I am a woman? when I think, I must speak.
  ~William Shakespeare

To get to a woman's heart, a man must first use his own.  ~Mike Dobbertin

Women speak two languages - one of which is verbal.  ~William Shakespeare

Women are wiser than men because they know less and understand more.
  ~James Thurber

I hate women because they always know where things are.  ~Voltaire  

Fighting is essentially a masculine idea; a woman's weapon is her tongue.  ~Hermione Gingold


Monday, February 15, 2010

To the window, to the wall, all skeet skeet goddamn

I've been dying to post this scene from The Proposal movie.
Where Margaret (Sandra Bullock) insisted to sing the mystic song about nature by the granma.
Margaret, firstly, sings it well. And sounds like very nature, give thanks to nature - in the same tribe-ryhthm with what the Granma told her to do so.
But not for a while.... Margaret goes freak!

She sings "Get Low" by Lil Jon with some of the improvisation. Her gesture, her freakiness...OMG, I cannot stop laughing everytime I watch this scene.
At first, when I saw it on movie, my mouth was like a big hole open. I rewind the scene to get noticed like, what was that she doing???? LOL
Really, this is funny!!!

Take a look (if you want to see it again)
Ah yeah, I also put the original lyrics by Lil Jon.
(Don't yell out knowing the lyrics is kinda %ght$**^ftr, Okaay??)

 "Get Low" - Lil Jon

3,6,9 damn your fine move it so you can sock it to me one mo time
Get low, Get low [x6]
To the window (TO THE WINDOW), to the wall, (TO THE WALL)
To the sweat drop down my balls (MY BALLS)
To all these bitches crawl (CRAWL)
To all skeet skeet motherfucker (MOTHERFUCKER!) all skeet skeet god damn (GOT DAMN)
To all skeet skeet motherfucker (MOTHERFUCKER!) all skeet skeet god damn (GOT DAMN)

Shortie crunk so fresh so clean can she fuck that
Question been harassing me in the mind this bitch is fine
I done came to the club about 50th 11 times now can I play with yo
panty line club owner said I need to calm down security guard go to sweating
Me now nigga drunk then a motherfucker threaten me now

She getting crunk in the club I mean she working
Then I like to see the female twerking taking the clothes off BUCKEY naked
ATL. Hoe don’t disrespect it
Pa pop yo pussy like this cause yin yang twins in this bitch
Lil Jon and the East side boys wit me and we all like to see Ass and tities
Now bring yo ass over here hoe and let me see you get low if you want this Thug
Now take it to the floor (to the floor) and if yo ass wanta act you can keep yo ass where you at

Let me see you get low you scared you, scared you
Drop dat ass to the floor you scared you, scared you
Let me see you get low you scared you, scared you
Drop dat ass to the floor you scared you, scared you
Drop dat ass ya shake it fast ya
Pop dat ass to the left and the right ya
Now back,back,back it up
a back,back,back it up
Now stop ( O) then wiggle wit ya
Now stop ( O) then wiggle wiggle wit it

Now give me my doe back and go get ya friend
Stupid bitch standing there while I’m drinking my hen
Steady looking at me Still asking questions
Times up nigga pass me another contestant
Hoe move to the left if you ain’t bout 50th
Done talk through 3 or 4 songs already
looking at a nigga with yo palm all out bitch I ain’t even seen you dance
Twerk something baby work something baby
Pop yo pussy on the pole do yo thang baby
Slide down dat bitch
wit yo little bit then stop
Get back on the floor catch yo balance then drop
Now bring it back up clap yo ass like hands
I just wanna see yo ass dirty dance yin yang we done again
And put it on the map like annnnn

Got damn (Got damn) ya ya’ll twreking alittle bit ladies
But ya got to twrek alittle bit harder then dat
now right now I need all the ladies dat know they look good tonite
(where my sexy ladies) we want ya’ll to do this shit like this
Bend over to the front touch toes back dat ass up and down and get low (get low)
Bend over to the front touch toes back dat ass up and down and get low (get low)

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Dear John

Director Lasse Hallstrom and screenwriter Jamie Lindon collaborate to adapt author Nicolas Sparks's novel about a young soldier who falls for an idealistic college girl. Savannah Curtis (Amanda Seyfried) was on spring break when she first met John Tyree (Channing Tatum) while he was home on temporary leave. For the smitten soldier, it was practically love at first sight. Though the love letters that Savannah sent John were one of the only things that kept him going over the course of the next seven years, when each deployment seemed more treacherous than the last, those loving and heartfelt correspondences would ultimately yield consequences that neither the brave soldier nor his one true love could have ever foreseen.



*Well, since it is him. Excuse moi, who? CHANNING TATUM!!!!
yeah, imma freak of him since his Step-up movie.
I am gonna watch this. 


Saturday, February 13, 2010

Alexander McQueen

British fashion designer Alexander McQueen has been found dead 
in his London apartment, an apparent suicide.He was 40 years old.

"McQueen influenced a whole generation of designers. His brilliant imagination knew no bounds as he conjured up collection after collection of extraordinary designs" - Alexandra Shulman, the editor of British Vogue.

McQueen sounded anguished and frustrated in recent postings on his Twitter page.
"i'm letting my followers know the my mother passed away yesterday if it she had not me nor would you RIP mumx."
Shortly afterward, he added: "But life must go on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
On Sunday, he used an obscenity to describe his "awful week" and said he had to "some how pull myself together and finish." 

Four days later, he was dead. 

Somehow, I love to see his collection.How talented he was. His uniqueness mixed with quirky and beautiful.
just love it! adorable!

as you've seen worn by Lady Gaga, rite?

and this pashmina is I-want-it!!! lol

this is simple with the shocking pink-seducing-heels. aaahhh...

some of McQueen quirky-beautiful-collection <3



Rest in peace, Mr. McQueen...

Monday, February 8, 2010

Oh Krazy Week

Right, what could I have asked more to get everything worse?
Simply nothing.
Well you probably wondering (or may be not, because I'm not your business) what happened.
And I may answer it, like: Actually it wasn't a big deal, whatsoever. Only a kind of Rapid 'Festival' held every 6 months.
It was the Final Term Exam.

See? It was a no problemo thang.

No problems, UNTIL I had this idea that "shit how come the exams were so dammit hard? I was dead-studied, prey, afraid, and shit this could not be happening!"

My plan is obviously want to get my nice GPA back, after the publicstupidspeaking last term.
Flashback to some lectures, I am now feeling so sick.
I was sure I could do the exams, I filled them all, I wrote and tried to be perfect (tho it wasn't, ofcourse).
Oh Gosh ...
Felt so stupid doing all of them, just crossfingering to hope everything's OK.
Sort of thing, work versus college truly never matched and fit each other.
I was walking like zombie, or beautiful-half-life half-dead retarded-girl to the campus.
Yawning like hottie hippopotamus in the office.
Every freaking nights, I slept only 3-4 hours; since I cannot sleep at midday.
But absolutely I am not gonna lose anything. Always trying to do my duties.

I remember one (forgot the name) said: "I don't need much sleep like 6-8 hours everyday. I can sleep far more longer when I die..."

Errr -- sounds very very very FANTASTIC!
Wh wh wh whaatt??
But, personally, I still need proper times of sleeping to charge my energy. If die means I get far far so much time to fall asleep, then heck why do I live here with those people selling comfy beds with blanket, pillow, and stuff?

Ultimately, I wanna say:
Thanks to Lorenzoo (OT parkour), surprisingly chat with me while I was ultrabored facing the monitor, to all the funny and wise talks on facebook!

This is it for the dammit tired-recap.
I rarely post my own life thru my own blog, since there are so many bloggers who post their own life story on their own blogs.

It's all about love, keep caring yourself and people around!

-Amelia N.A.A.W  :)

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Prince and Paris gave speech for their daddy at 52nd Grammy Awards

I know it is quite late to talk about 52nd Grammy Awards that occurred last Thursday, 2nd February 2010
It is not THAT important though to discuss and observe a lot about all the performances.
Since not all of them were proper to get the award, ehem… especially Taylor Swift.
Oh pllleeeeeaaaazzzzzz, she wasn’t good on live performance. Her voice was not that special. It was all average. And that makes me confused, how come she won the Album of The Year????
Well, big applause for Beyonce who brought 6 total awards that night. She was good, real entertaining. I hoped Kanye West were there to interrupt TS again like in VMAs 2009 hahahahah *evil*
Okay move on. I want to put the King of Pop’s moment.
Prince, Paris, and three cousins of Michael Jackson were on stage accepting the Lifetime Achievement Awards 2010. I was so haaaaaaappyy!
I think, Michael should have accepted every year Grammy Awards. Why? Think about this: Who else can entertain millions people and fans especially (all of the people in the earth, maybe those who live outspace) like Michael Jackson did?
Who, tell me?
That is absolute.
He was the one, still now is the one and the only gifted-man who could hypnotized us when he was on stage.
It wasn’t about the modern and sophisticated technology when his concert was held. But it was about Michael. When he stopped, everyone KEPT staring at him. No entity (world-entity) that can compare to him. Ever.
Well, here is the video when awesome Prince gave the good speech about the awards given, and Paris who is getting more and more stunning every time she shows on public. 

Unfortunately, Blanket wasn’t on stage. 
But I got his picture while he was there (backstage maybe?)

Monday, February 1, 2010

Gotta Work

Sometimes it's gonna be days like this
Sometimes it's gonna be rain like this
Sometimes you're gonna feel pain like this
Sometimes you gotta work hard for it

Because when u feeling low
And u cant get no lower
That's when u know your close
Sometimes u gotta work hard for it

Woke up in the morning
It's another cloudy day
But that never mattered too much to me
'Cause it's still a new beginning
And I know I got it in me
Had my share of ups and downs
But now I know I can do anything

Some people think I'm aggressive
'Cause I know what I want
But that never mattered too much to me

Show me some body without goal
Show me some body with no control
'Cause life is for living
So go and get it
When times get rough remember

Ohh gotta get it
Hey hey hey
Sometimes the road may seem too far
You never really know for sure
If you're ever gonna make it
Sometimes the end may seem so far
You never really know for sure
If u got the strength to make it

But u gotta remember

Days like this
Rain like this

Do it cause I love it
Feel like this
Gotta work hard for it 

Amerie - Gotta Work

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