Saturday, January 21, 2012

A whole new world

Breathing underwater is not likely the same with above the land. Everything is different. 

I use my mouth, pump oxygen to my lungs, divide the exhale of it little by little, in stages. Save the 40 percent in the abs, then exhale them again slowly. Real deep and slow.

Do not ask my buoyancy (i.e. the ability or tendency to float in water or other fluid). It needs several training and times of scuba diving to comprehend a newbie like myself 'flying' underwater. Moreover, it is not merely to better my buoyancy, but also to boost self-confidence. 

My instructor said that confidence is all I need; and I need more. I need to believe that I have the ability to do it like others. And I actually do have it.

What I need to bear in mind is that I have the guts to do whatever it takes to improve this new underwater frenzy. God bless me...

Thursday, January 19, 2012

A Letter to Myself...

My dear Amelia,

How are you doing there? Fine, I do sincerely hope you are. 

I am doing great here. I have been traveling around to the corner of the world, seeing things I haven’t imagined before; smelling scents of new rooms, places, and even the mists of different oceans; and – my favorite part so far – tasting various foods, snacks and drinks that you would really love too if you were here.

Above and beyond these adventurous yet thrilling experiences, I am still missing something. Something that is not new, but can make my days like brand new. I’m not overstating, but this “thing” is you. Yes. You, Amelia.

Those old days where we were just a couple of new lovebirds, I felt so attached with you. I remembered well that almost everyday we met and I didn’t get bore of it.

You’re a person that is so one in a million. You always threw a unique opinion of random things and topic we often talked about. At first, I was confused. However, through times I got to know you better and we got to know each other better, you looked even more attractive.

You are indeed a shy girl. You prefer to shut your mouth and keep calm, rather than rambling and being talkative, in a situation where many friends and people are there. You do not like crowded so much and tell me that you get dizzy whenever there are simply too many people, too many sounds and movements. 

You love to spend your time alone (with books, laptop, DVDs, internet, blog and me? No? Oh crap…) than gather with people; even though you opt to hang out with close and good friends, not some casual friends and acquaintances you rarely interact with.

I also miss the way you hug me, bear hug precisely. It was not that strong, actually. But when I bear-hugged you back, you were like panting, and that was cute. Speaking about cute, do you recall what it felt like when I whispered to your ear? How about that smackdown time when you tried to knock me down but always failed? Hahaha… Those were totally adorable. You are adorable.

When I talk with you, I can almost discuss everything. Your slightly care towards our government, the politic scenes, philosophy, health and fitness, foods, fashion, some stupid useless topics… I find that wonderful and funny all at once especially when I caught your facial expression that was so energetic and on fire.

Well, I may not nice to you all the time, nor bring happiness to you. I try to balance everything, with your swinging PMS mood, and understand situations. This letter is the only way I can put up with my feeling now. I miss you and love you. Please, do not ask how I can show you the love that I have; and I know that you always there, holding my heart that I have given to you to look after.

So, we’re going to be a long-lasting best friends, siblings and lovers; aren’t we?

Yours sincerely,
A lover

Sunday, January 1, 2012

My 2012 Pledge: Confidence, Smile and Aware

Recalling the last 365 days in 2011, I was blessed with million things I had experienced. Finished the bachelor’s study one step ahead before my 2011 class officially graduated, got a more responsible job after more than 1.5 awesome year in an English-language newspaper troupe, moved to a remote village with GMT +8 timezone for the work and learned priceless things during the routine of work pressure and deadlines.

Not to mention, 2011 gave me a chance to travel the mid and east regions of Indonesia. Traveling, to me, means to see the world through a different point of view; to experience living in a brutality – out of familiar self-comfort zone; to breathe the same oxygen under similar sky in such different circumstances; and to impulsively open wide these eyes of mine to witness whatever happens around.

Moreover, who would have known I might bump into a cold-faced, scuba diving freakish man who then turned into mon chéri

Twelve months, 24 hours, seven weeks of 2011 had brought me several weakness points that I considerably need to review. I am conscious that some of my weaknesses have been probably fading and going away; while some others are still here with me, they love me, and I do not love them at all.

Frankly to say, I dare myself to cease my relentless weaknesses to achieve my dreams in the year of the Dragon and Water – according to what I read on this webpage of Chinese years. Again, I frequently tell myself not to obsess anything too much.

The KISS philosophy has been sticked on my door’s room to refresh me of living the life: Keep It Simple Stupid (KISS). As some of you may remember, being a Virgo is a damn hard destiny. Not that I forget how to have fun and laugh, but the perfect-oriented and hard thinking habit are merely as painful as having Brazillian wax.

To keep myself provoked of why I publish this year’s resolution on my blog in the first place, thus I solemnly pledge allegiance to myself, and only my own self, that these below resolutions are not going to be my 2012 law of life – but to be come in real, in order to outshine my life day by day.

1. Braver to speak my mind and stand on my opinion to people. Walk and bring myself in a more confidence manner in front of any situation, people and condition.
2. More gracious and sociable by giving more smiles to anyone – friends, families, loved ones, acquaintances, neighbors or strangers.
I need to have more courage to make a small talk and help to strangers I encounter in the road, transportation and anywhere. Last year’s been good, but it’s not enough :)
3. Keep in touch and stay close with my good ol’ fellas, while the fresh folks are not disregarded.
4. More aware and look after myself: My healthy skin (as it’s getting darker because of my sea, beach and sunshine addictions), shiny and sexy wavy hair, pinkish nails, firm and toned body (and my big butt!), fresh face and smiley face, beneficial foods and spiritual soul.
5. Add in some optimism and positive thoughts in the morning for a great whole day – no matter how gorgeous life will grill me that day.
6. Get a more challenging, high-level job and face the work-life competition. I’d be a bitch if I should really do that. This time, I’ll walk the confidence talk...
7. Balancing my work life, dreams (master’s degree and being an entrepreneur!), family, hobby and love life. Balance ‘em all, biatch!
8. Go on a voyage across Indonesia more (amin to that!) – while traveling overseas is yet on my list. This is Indonesia, dudes!
9. Purchase what I need, not what I think it looks good on me or simply it’s cool.
10. Do extra saving. Do more donation for those unfortunate.

So, have you made your 2012 resolution? A list of points to accomplish, maybe? Or you’d rather keep it to yourself?
Are you satisfied with your last year’s life? Would you want to make a gigantic improvement this year?

The IAT aircraft was about to take-off. (shot by Amelia Winnie)

Happy New Year’s 2012 and have a gorjes days ahead!


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